i’ve just returned from a 16 hour drive in a 24 hour period. i’ve just returned from saying my final good bye to my grandmother. i’ve just returned from florida where she lived. & i’m spent. & it’s sad. i feel my mothers pain. i feel life catching up with us. i feel mortal
my maternal grandmother was strong willed, talented, & beautiful. she loved things that shined. metallic. gold lame. she always put satin sheets on the bed for me when i was a little girl. gold satin sheets, of course. i remember her teaching me to crochet. i remember her washing my hair. i remember her laughing & her hands & her snow white hair
& now i’m back. we’re back. my mom & i. spending time together. being sometimes sentimental. sometimes joyful. mainly we’re exhausted
after this close death- which shouldn’t seem as sudden as it feels- i want to hold on tighter, hold those i love closer, & enjoy every moment i have in this life time. i hope you do that today too
xoxo
jade
June 3rd, 2009 at 3:48 pm
Losing a close relative can be a truly surreal event; however, I am usually able find the most unexpected comfort in memories, comfort in togetherness, comfort in hope, and comfort in knowing that families and relationships are eternal. I hope that you, too, can find comfort in these things. Please accept my sincerest condolences, Jade.
June 10th, 2009 at 10:34 am
Jade, I am sorry for your loss. My grandmother, that helped raised me passed a few years ago, and it was tough to lose someone that close. My prayers for you and your family.